So christmas approaches, do I care, no.  Am I bothered that the kids have only a tree with lights.  No other decorations apart from cards.  I suppose I should feel bothered, a normal person would be bothered , not me.  I am bothered that they have only 8 presents each, why only 8, mmmmm, because I just don't care anymore, the other half does the shopping, explains it all i think, but this then, makes me feel worse, because he is male and doesn't care anyway.  So I now feel even worse, more failure more misery.... Mummy why don't you smile, errr can;t answer that one, is the frequent question